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Post by aerona elen evan on Nov 14, 2011 10:39:47 GMT -5
november fourteen two thousand eleven [/font][/b]  - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] Don't forget to check the mobile for a text from Cass this new artist guy, more or less my age who is going to treat me to chinese food, which I hadn't yet tried out. The mobile is on the desk near the laptop, the keys near the door and I can't remember where the umbrella is so don't forget to buy one when I am out. He said I could use his, and to go for red clothes to match the umbrella which is... a bit stupid but I don't see why not. Also check the board for pending essays I might have forgot I had and re-read the lines of the scripts, check the mail and the voicemail of the phone in case you got and answer from the commercial casting call. [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Nov 15, 2011 20:55:52 GMT -5
november sixteenth two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] Not much to remember, apart from meeting someone who happened to 'know me' from back home. I think his name is Gareth and is Cass boyfriend. At least he hadn't pressure me into remembering and he seems the quite calm type. I don't know what to think though, will he start questioning me like everyone does too? He doesn't seem a potential danger. That Cass guy, the 'stalker', keeps saying I might be the Aerona he met during summers, I can remember my mom saying something about spending all summers back in her hometown... but I can't recall the name, it just don't comes to my brain, it has to be there somewhere becase mom sure said it. Didn't do much today so there is nothing to write, oh the umbrella I bought is in the entry wardrobe. Maybe I should call Marcus or just go over to his house and hang there... [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Nov 16, 2011 17:14:13 GMT -5
november seventeenth two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] I went with Marcus to Disneyland and had great fun, he helps me feel better after I suffer one of my episodes, they are getting more frequent now than before and I wonder if that's a bad sign or what... anyway, I really had a good time, riding on everything we could, eating, lazying around you know, the usual stuff. I hadn't done anything like that before and it was a great experience, a very good memory to save, hopefully this one will stay. [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Nov 17, 2011 21:42:19 GMT -5
november eighteenth two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] Talked with the guys on the chat, finding Marcus also uses it, they adviced me to get a pet rock since it seems I'll forget to feed a real one -.- I have to remember to bring over the toys I bought for the cats, they are in the kitchen near the fridge. It had been a low day, I did my work and forgot a few things, nothing major this time really but I'll have to go to the doctor if this keeps happening. I can't remember if I had pets in the past, I know I don't have any now or if I had a boyfriend. I don't trust what people says I did or didn't do because they hide things. [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Nov 21, 2011 16:09:08 GMT -5
november twenty first two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] I did something amazing the other day, I went Scuba diving with Brad and had great fun. It was one hell of a experience and I am glad I got to meet him. He invited me for a coffee first and then suddenly he said we could try scuba diving or skiing, parasailing... I think he wanted for it to be a date, I am not ready to get into a relationship with someone when I can't even figure out myself. He would have a hard time with my memory episodes, my nightmares... and he won't like knowing it's all getting worst. We talked a bit about my notebook... and the accident. I also met Maxton and he invited me to meet his horses, that would be great, I think riding a horse will be something I will like. [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Dec 3, 2011 17:05:07 GMT -5
december third two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] I went to spend the day to the Tuileries Garden and had another of my episodes. Luckily for me Cass found me lost and took me to eat some ice cream. He brought back old memories, good memories that made me want to remember, something that never happened before. I want to remember him and those great memories of our summer together. I feel as if he is talking about someone else, someone who is definetely not me. We even set a golf cart on fire! I mean how awesome is that? I really want to remember all those things... so I am phoning mom and asking her to send me those pictures with him, I don't want to ask her about the memories though, I would rather hear that from Cass. [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Dec 17, 2011 17:33:32 GMT -5
december seventeenth two thousand eleven [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] So the weirdest thing happened the other to me. I was visiting the Eiffel Tower and out of the blue a guy comes and calls my name. As I later came to know he happened to be my boyfriend back home, and his name is Chris. So well how do I know this? Because seeing he is from back home I wondered what he was doing here in Paris, guess what? He said he came all the way here to look for me. I don't know if that is creepy or very romantic, and the first thing I thought was him being a stalker. He said he was going to propose me. back home, what can I do? I didn't know how to feel, I am still figuring that out... luckily Gareth got in there and Cass not long afterward which helped a lot actually to ease the fear I was feeling. Oh! and I managed to remember something about Cass, something about him being always a mess. It's been a long week... [/blockquote][/justify] |
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Post by aerona elen evan on Feb 4, 2012 21:09:15 GMT -5
february fifth two thousand twelve [/font][/b] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I'M THE NEW CANCERNEVER LOOKED BETTERYOU CAN'T STAND IT[/font] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -[/center] Aerona ,[/font][/color] Things are getting worst. I’ve been having this headaches from hell recently that make me feel weak and sick, I’m all by myself also so that’s only makes things worst. I feel alone. Nightmares are back but ten time worst so I’m doing what I always do, not sleeping until my body is so exhausted I can’t even dream, and I’m no hungry so I’m not eating much. I’m growing very thin. I’m not doing very interesting things lately, I can’t even go to the academy most of the time though luckily for me I’m keeping up, I don’t even know how. I’m losing all my memory. Hours, days… Sometimes it’s just little things but lately it’s whole hours and days. I’m getting really scared but who to tell? Chris?
I’m not sure I can trust Chris fully, the reason is simple; I have a feeling about him. Mom says we were happy and all that but I have the feeling she never voices something, she is hiding something about Chris just the same way she hided Cass, but this time is different, I can feel it. Cass has enough with his boyfriend so I’m not bothering him either… I’m all by myself as always because it was my decision, but I never thought things were going to be this way. My head is going to explode and I’m eventually losing everything… I started to get pictures of things and placing them in the wall of my room so I won’t forget my good memories but I’m so anti-social I realized I don’t have many friends.
I don’t want to go to the doctor but if things keep this way I’ll just have to at some point.
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