drag me headfirst; fearless. 'anouk · COMPLETE

[alexei leon fournier]

Sydney; it was one of the biggest known cities in the world, sure most people didn’t talk about it like they did about the UK, Europe or the USA, but it was still an important city in the world. From the geography that he could remember, Australia was a more economically developed country living below the Brandt line. The Brandt line was a sort of imaginary line that separated the north of the world from the south, that separated the rich people from the poor, it separated Kenya from the UK, and Rio de Janeiro from the other parts of America. Almost every single country below the Brandt line was less economically developed, they were third world countries; except fro Australia and New Zealand; those two amazingly huge countries were the only major exceptions in all of this. It was slightly amusing how they seemed to go down there, he couldn’t quite remember but weren’t Australia and New Zealand under the monarchy from Britain? He couldn’t remember all of that and frankly, it was hurting his head to remember all these little tit bits of information.

The entire road trip to Sydney had been frightening, even though Anouk had told him that her father was fine with their relationship, the nearer they got to their destination, the more sweatier, frightened and anxious he became; it wasn’t helping that Scarlett was there either. If it was only himself and Anouk, then he was sure he would have felt slightly less nervous, throughout the entire plane ride, the brunette had spoken and spoken and spoken; it was as if God had given her the ability to talk so much without ever tiring. Halfway through the plane ride he had fallen asleep, and woke up just a few minutes before they had landed. The cab ride to Anouk’s father’s house made him feel even more scared, he just wasn’t ready, not ready at all; but thankfully his face held no hesitation or signs that he wanted to back out of this as quickly as he could.

The cab ride was much quicker than the plane ride that was for sure. He hoped it would have been though. Gulping a little as the cab came to a stop in front of a hulking, sheer size of a house, his Adam’s apple bobbed up and down a little. Smiling at Anouk as best as he could he took a hold of her hand, making sure that his hands were clean of his sweat before taking her. Scarlett had already gone ahead of the both of them, opening the door of the house as if it was her own. Alexei stayed slightly behind, dragging suitcases behind him, he was definitely not going to carry Scarlett’s as the girl seemed to have brought her whole house with her. Instead he carried his own and had a few of Anouk’s bags with him too. Coming to a sow stop, he realised that there was a man standing, waiting for him. Gulping once more, he dragged the suitcases forward and once reaching the man he smiled; this was definitely Anouk’s father; he was exactly as she had described him. Putting his fear aside, he braced a smile, extending his hand. ”Alexei Fournier sir, nice to meet you.”

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[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk was plain tired. The flight to Sydney had been eternal, with Scarlett incessant babbling and Alexei’s scared because of meeting her father. Not to mention she was having mixed feelings about seeing her father again. On the side she was excited because it had been a long time since she had last seen him, three years to be exact, since her mother re-married, on the other hand she wasn’t too keen on meeting his new father girlfriend… and not because she doubted the woman was nice and all that jazz but because… well, it wasn’t going to be the same. Anouk wasn’t worried at all about how his father was going to act around Alexei; she had called him and told him everything about him. It was difficult to hide things from him, he knew her more than anyone else. In fact he claimed he had known it from the very start because of the way she spoke of him and also that he had been worrying about her a great deal because of it. Anouk pressed her hand to her forehead, her head was going to explode and she was grateful when the painkillers seemed to do some effect on her and she could get some rest. So far she had never been to Australia before; it was one of those faraway places where her father never managed to get a job. She had been in Scotland, England, Spain, the USA, Holland and so many others, even China once though that had been one of the shortest trips. Now she was getting the chance to know it with her beloved, their first trip together.

She could sense Alex’s fear and that wanted to make her laugh but it was totally understandable so she stroked his hand now and then trying to encourage him and gave him smiles whenever she caught him looking at her. Anouk had wanted to rest her head in his shoulder, circle his arms with hers and whisper him against his neck that everything was going to be fine but didn’t because Scarlett had been there with her penetrating high pitch in her head all the time. Now that they were in the cab and the time was getting closer she rested her hand on his knee and softly stroked it to try and calm him down saying nothing. Getting out of the cab had been a huge relieve for her legs and she went to help Alex with her bags, she had managed to fit everything in one suitcase and a medium handbag which was actually surprising. Alex’s took her hand and she squeezed it, smiling at him gently. How much could someone love? It seemed her love got deeper and deeper with every day they were together and she had believed it impossible. She knew her eyes had that adoring gaze whenever she looked at him, but Anouk couldn’t help it at all. When she turned, Scarlett was already at the door and her father was standing there with a huge grin on his face, looking exactly the same way than when she left him the last time. Maybe with some more wrinkles around his eyes and mouth from the laughing and a bit balder.

Towing Alex with her she crossed the front yard and hugged her father with one arm close breathing his familiar scent. He hadn’t change at all and she felt welcomed and home. “It’s so good to see you dad.” She whispered and stepping back she allowed Alex to make his introduction never letting go of his other hand. His father looked at him with amused eyes, just like she knew he would. He was a hippie after all and all he cared about was love, not between who the love was or the circumstances. “So you are the lucky man who caught my little girl.” Her father said taking his hand and shaking it happily. “Yes, he is. And this is Scarlett, my friend.” Anouk pointed towards the girl and her father shook her hand too. So far everything was going as smoothly as she had hoped for. “Come on, let’s head inside, I bet you are all tired and I have to show you your rooms and have a small talk with this young man.” His father showing them inside the house, Anouk squeezed Alex's hand and whispered to him. “It's going to be fine.”

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 731
NOTES, scared alex is cuteee ^^

[alexei leon fournier]

The first thing Alex noticed about Anouk’s father was that he was slightly bald, which was weird because his father and Anouk’s father were just about the same age, give or take a few years; and his father still had a full head of hair, even if it was slightly grey. To Alex, hair was a lot, he had no idea why but he was someone who took pride in his hair, he made sure he always looked presentable whenever he went outside because he didn’t want people to think he was some sort of a tramp or hobo. Out of everything on and in his body, he loved his hair the most and thought that it was the thing that stuck out the most. The second thing he noticed about Anouk’s father was the smile on his face, and that sort of made his rigid, tense muscles unfreeze by just a millimetre or so. That smile that the old man was giving him was sort of the only thing that was keeping him from running back into the cab and going back to the airport...well that and Anouk’s tight grip on his hand. He was glad that she was at least there, because it meant that he wouldn’t have to face this alone; he wouldn’t have to be scared all too much anymore. The third thing that he was fully aware of was Anouk’s hand, it was warm and comforting. Helping him to resist the urge to run away and never come back, it was helping him to stay strong and be happy about this because he knew the sooner he got this done, the easier this holiday would be.

He was surprised that Anouk hadn’t let go of his hand when they finally reached her father, that was surprising but it was nice because she was still comforting him. He smiled at the man as Anouk gave him a hug, he could see the resemblance between the both of them. The same nose and hairline, it was weird to think that this was where Anouk had come from, her dad and her mother back in Paris; he had never thought of her in that way and it was slightly weird that he was thinking of this right at that moment when he should have been sweating his guts out. The fourth thing that Alexei recognised was the look that her father gave to the both of them, it wasn’t condescending, it wasn’t disappointed and it wasn’t a disgusted look. In fact it was a happy look, a look that told Alex that he had nothing to worry about because the man seemed to believe in the love between himself and Anouk, so that was a good thing. It sort of made him feel calmer on the inside. Gripping his hand, he shook the older man’s hand before letting go and wiping his sweaty palm on his jeans with a smile on his face. “Yes sir, that’s me.” Nodding his head, he smiled at Anouk, still gripping onto her hand and watching her converse with her father; Anouk was always an animated character and he loved that about her. He smiled, sighing in relief when Scarlett beamed happily and began to say something; at least the focus was off him for a few moments.

His muscles slightly froze when the man told them, and was announcing it that he wanted to talk with him. Keeping the smile on his face though he nodded his head, “Thank you sir.” Looking down at Anouk he raised an eyebrow and sighed, but nodded. Moving close to her ear he whispered. “But if you don’t see my body for the rest of this week, know that I love you.” He chuckled, leaning forward to give her a little kiss on the cheek before carrying his bag and Anouk’s bag up the stairs. Scarlett had realised that he wasn’t carrying her bags, kicked him in the shin and ran back down the stairs to make sure that the cab hadn’t left with her bags. He gasped at the pain and looked at Anouk. “You have to control that girl.”

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[anouk lirienne fournier]

She felt good seeing her dad, it was as if she was coming back home. Anouk hadn’t realized how much she needed his company until she was there and now it was going to be hard leaving him behind when the week was done, suddenly seven days didn’t seem enough. But she couldn’t stay there forever, not even for a short period, and she certainly wasn’t going to ask Alexei to drop everything he had in Paris to stay here with her. Feeling the warm arms of her father around her made her feel as if she was a kid again, she felt young and could even see herself when she was seven running around the front yard with her toys and waving at her father in the porch with a smile. She could felt Alexei’s hand on hers, so warm and sweaty from the fear, it didn’t matter how many times in the past she had told him he had nothing to worry about, but Anouk could understand this wasn’t easy for him. She was very aware of her father watching every movement done between them and was glad to see approbation in his eyes and a really warm welcoming smile directed towards Alexei. Her father had been always that way and he hadn’t let her down on the most important thing for her. She smiled when it seemed Alexei relaxed a bit after her father acknowledged him and laughed a bit when Scarlett beamed.

“You will have to stop the sir thing around me kid. Call me Lenny.” Her father said with a laugh. He had the same problem with age he did, they never felt their age, they felt younger and being treated as sir, miss, or whichever, made them both feel old and responsible. Responsibility was something Anouk’s father had been avoiding for the longest time and it seemed he as still going to go his own way. “Dad has the same problem with age I have. I think it’s genetic.” Anouk explained to Alex. She laughed softly when he looked down to her and raised his eyebrow, she just shrugged. Her father wasn’t going to question him about everything, and wasn’t going to give him the speech about how to treat his little girl; he just probably wanted to know more about the boy his daughter loved. She leaned into his kiss and chuckled at the idea of her father trying to murder Alexei, he should know better than doing so because she could get pretty dangerous when it came to protecting people she loved. “I love you too but he is not going to eat you baby, he just want to get to know you because you are my important person.” She burst out laughing when Scarlett kicked Alex for not carrying her bags and nodded at him. “As if that was possible, but I am going to scold her for hitting you.”

She knew her father was watching and hearing everything they were saying as he lead the way and pointed toward a door. “This one is for this nice young lady here, Scarlett.” He said smiling at her and opening the door, it was a pretty big nice guest room and then continued his way toward the last door in the hall. “And this one is for you two. Should you need to change the sheets you have always a spare one in the wardrobe.” Anouk laughed and hit her dad slightly, he knew her way too well but he was getting the picture totally wrong for once. “Dad is not like that at all with him.” She said still laughing. Her father looked impressed and surprised, recognizing the truth in her voice. She smiled at him and then got closer to Alex. “Oh well okay then. I will leave you alone to unpack and have a shower which is that door there. I’ll call you when I need you.” That was one good thing about her father, he always respected her space. Anouk opened the door to the room and smiled at the king sized bed. “Finally some time for ourselves.” She said looking at Alex from above her shoulder.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 699
NOTES, anouk's father is love lol wish my dad was like that too hahah

[alexei leon fournier]

Alex didn’t have a close relationship with his father, he was a boy and boys tended to be on the mom’s side of everything, and they were mommy’s little angels all the time. He didn’t think Anouk’s mom thought of him in that way to, and he definitely didn’t think of her as a real mom. No matter how much he tried, she sort of reminded him too much of his real mom, but she was really nice because she gave him his own space, after all he was twenty four, he didn’t need a mother hanging over him now, he was like that since he was eleven so it was working out for the both of them. Even though he was twenty four years old, he was still living under his father’s roof, even though Alex always said he wasn’t a people person, he was really more so of a family person, he loved hanging out with his family even if he wasn’t in the house most of the time and more so in the gallery; they were the only people in life who would actually stick by you through thick and thin. He knew he would and could count on them when he fell on a hard spot. They would always watch over him, just the way Anouk’s father was now. Alex could sense the older man watching how the both of them conversed and the little touches between them, which made Alex, think that he was being inappropriate. Was he supposed to touch the elder man’s daughter right in front of him or would he have to restrain himself from all the hold handing and hugs?

Nodding his head with a small smile at ‘Lenny,’ Alexei licked his lips nervously. “Yes s-..I mean Lenny. Lenny it is.” He gave another one of his awkward smiles, finding it weird to call his...sort of step dad (?) by his name, Alexei was too much of a gentlemen to call people by their names, but if that was the Lenny wanted it then that was the way it was going to be. “Aaah, now I know where Anouk gets her sense of youth from.” His eyes twinkled at Anouk, a flashing smile on his face as he thought of the world just revolving around them, but he controlled himself enough to make sure that Lenny was involved and restrained himself from kissing her right in front of her father. It wasn’t appropriate; he had to keep telling himself that, nothing was appropriate in front of a father and daughter relationship, even if Anouk thought of him as important. Alex tried to keep his voice as low as he could so that Lenny wouldn’t hear a thing. “If you say so, but one sign of a knife and I’m running.” He let out a small laugh and nodded his head at Anouk, making sure that she knew he was joking but yet sort of serious at the same time. “Well, that’s enough then, as long as you scold her.” He was going to go in for another kiss but the sight of Lenny stopped him from doing so. This was another country, somewhere where people wouldn’t notice him and Anouk that much; he could do whatever he wanted with her now.

His eyebrow rose at Scarlett’s bedroom and he resisted the urge to let out one of those low whistles, the room was quite fancy; well very fancy indeed, it was really pretty and Scarlett did have a nice view of the beach and the ocean. Walking towards the last door in the hall he looked into the bedroom that was for him and Anouk and nearly choked on his own saliva. “Erm. No. No sir, I mean Lenny. We’re...we’re not like that.” His words sort of walked over Anouk’s he hadn’t meant for it to, but he was surprised at the way Anouk’s father seemed so at ease with everything, which was slightly worrying for Alex, but then again, he was always responsible and orderly about everything. Alex nodded his head at Lenny and smiled, “Thanks very much Lenny.” He watched Anouk’s father go down the stairs and once the man was out of view, he let out a sigh and smiled at Anouk, dropping their bags to the floor and walking towards her. “Finally indeed, I thought I was going to die soon, I have no idea how I’m going to handle his twenty one questions.” He shook his head with another smile and sat on the bed, pulling Anouk by the waist and smiling up at her.

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[anouk lirienne fournier]

Her father was a familiar man just like Anouk was, they both hated being treated by miss or sir and they wanted people to call them by their names. She used to call him ‘Len’ when she was younger but it seemed now he was more… Americanized and wanted to be called ‘Lenny’, and it sure had to be something related to his later musical tastes because that was the way her dad roll. She knew him too well and so the fact that her father was watching them didn’t bother her at all. It wasn’t a matter of being inappropriate or not, her father sure had seen worst boys than Alex during the curse of the years. He just wanted to study them together, to see if it was true what she had said, if she was really in love and happy and safe. She raised an eyebrow at him and smirked, he also was trying to test Alex and see how far he could go under pressure. She laughed when Alex staggered over the word sir and shrugged her shoulders at him when he commented on her issues with age. “She looks like me in a lot of ways, she is one hell of a girl to handle kid, I hope you are ready.” Her father said. Anouk looked back at Alex with warm love in her eyes and laughed a bit at his whispers. How much she loved him and how good it felt not having to hide, being able to hold hands just like a normal couple would, being all lovey-dovey without having to worry about whom was watching them. She leaned into him a bit closing her eyes for a second and opening them. “He is just making sure I am fine, I’ve never been much of a romantic girl, this is as new for him as it is for you and me.” she whispered back and pinched his arms playfully.

Her father was used to see boys coming and going out of the house in the morning, picking her up at night… she had touched them and kissed them, but never in a lovely way, it was just lust, no feelings involved at all and so his father was making sure this was different, he wouldn’t dare say a thing if they touched in front of him, he probably would even encourage them to do so and even help with her mom, as if in smoothing the way for the big news. Lennard was a bit of a ladies’ man, she had inherited that too from him so he wasn’t going to be surprised at all if they kissed and hugged and cuddle. Anouk saw the way Alex was holding back, when for once he didn’t need to and decided to make a move of her own. She tiptoed a bit, kissing him lightly for a few seconds and then stepping back to smile at him. She didn’t need to hide here, they were far away from home and all the people they knew, here no one was going to pay them attention at all if they walked down the streets hand in hand or if he held her close to him. They wouldn’t do it in Paris either but Alex was paranoid about it thinking everyone they knew would be around the corner waiting for them to crack a bit so they could bring them down. “We don’t need to hold back here.” She whispered and continued to follow her dad, which was smiling to the wall acting as if he hadn’t seen a thing or even was there.

The house was big and beautiful, very beach style, with sand colored walls and baby blue and white all around. It seemed her father was planning on staying here in a more permanent way than he had ever in other places. Anouk wondered if for once he was getting mature but of course after his next sentence that was plain impossible. “I just know my daughter too well, kid. Won’t get surprised if she lures you into it.” She burst out laughing at Alex’s face and shook her head at her dad. “Leave us alone dad, this is different!” She said teasing him and smiled when her father finally left. She was dragged toward the bed by Alex, and she smiled down at him and leaned to kiss him again, her hands cupping his face. She sat on his lap, surrounding his neck with her arms and smiled playfully at him. “He is not like that at all, he will probably tease you and joke around to see what kind of guy you are. And I know very well he likes you already, so there is nothing to worry about.” In fact she knew her dad liked him a lot, but who wouldn’t? Alex was simply lovable.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 813
NOTES, lol funny alex getting all awkward.

[alexei leon fournier]

Alexei was definitely ready to take on Anouk, and he didn’t mean it in a sexual way. He knew that there were a lot of things that had happened in Anouk’s life, some good and some bad, and she hadn’t told him most of them yet apart from the drugs, alcohol and sex with countless amounts of boys. He didn’t know how bad her depression was, didn’t know what else happened in her past but he was determined to know. Wasn’t one part of love to know as much as you could about your other half? He had only know Anouk for what...two years? And he didn’t even know as much as her favourite colour yet...although she did wear black and red dresses a lot so maybe they were one of her favourite colours? Alex never took anything simple into his mind; he had to always take something complicated and then simplify it in his own mind. It was just another weird way as to how Alex worked; he didn’t like things simple, only when he made it simple was when he would appreciate it...most of the time. But simple things were good, simple was nice, he was basically someone simple, but Anouk was complicated and he had to do a lot to understand the way she worked. Alexei nodded his head, “I am very much ready Lenny, and don’t you worry about that.” He let out a little laugh, a slight twinkle in his eyes as his eyes roved over Anouk. He didn’t have to hide the lust or love in his eyes whenever he saw her now and that idea just made him fizzle with happiness, it was weird how happy he felt but for once he was going to go with it, he wasn’t going to stop it, and not only because there was no one that would recognise them in this country. He shook his head at Anouk’s words and raised an eyebrow at her when she pinched him playfully, as they were walking up the stairs he pinched her side in return, a small, innocent smile on his face as he got used to the idea of being in this house.

Even though he was more relaxed here, he slightly tensed up when Anouk kissed him, but he was enjoying it more. Now that people weren’t in his mind, worrying him over and over again, he could actually sense and feel everything. He could sense the warmth in Anouk’s lip, the soft plumpness of them which made her look so adorable. She also tasted amazing, he had no idea what it was, to him it was something like a summer fruit; but he hardly ever saw her eating fruit so then what was it? He had no idea but it was an intoxicating taste and he knew then that he would always want more of it. He sighed happily when she pulled back, a smile of ease on his face as she spoke and nodded his head. “Well, I’m definitely glad about that.” He was becoming slightly more mischievous as the minutes passed, as if nothing could stop him from doing whatever he wanted to do to Anouk, and yes there was a hint of something sexual in that. It was as if a side of Alex had come out that had been suppressed in all these years and now it was finally coming out; he hoped that he would be able to control himself though, be able to reign himself in otherwise there could be problems and he didn’t want that at all.

A blush ran across the nape of Alex’s neck and up to his cheeks, he was glad it was a bit too sunny and that it wasn’t showing all too much. Instead of replying to Lenny’s words, he just nodded his head, keeping his head down as he bit down into his lips to stop himself from laughing. He knew that Anouk would never try to lure him into doing anything...well he hoped that she wouldn’t, because it wasn’t easy being a man who had sexual urges after keeping them in for a hefty few years; it wasn’t easy at all. His head leaned upwards once they were on the bed, loving each and every kiss given by Anouk because she was gentle and very sweet. His arms went around her waist, holding onto her as she sat down on his lap and he looked down at her with a big smile. Nodding his head he looked around the room. “Alright, if you say so then I’ll believe you.” Sighing he gave another smile, and leaned back on the bed, pulling Anouk down with him and rolling over so he was on top of her. Looking down, he smiled, pushing her back before he began to kiss her. “I’m already liking this holiday...I’m just hoping Scarlett doesn’t interrupt us all too much.” He stopped for a second as he heard Scarlett come up and down the stairs with her suitcases, swearing at Alex and going into her room.

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[anouk lirienne fournier]

Her father was right, she was kind of hard to handle but not for Alex because she had worked hard to make things easier for him. She gave in everything, she avoided hurting him, and she did everything in her power to make him happy… Anouk loved Alex in a way no one did or would ever will. It was very important for her to see both her father and her boyfriend were getting along that well, as she knew they would. Still she had to admit she had been sort of scared too introducing the both of them, not really knowing if her father was going to accept him or not, or how Alex will react to the whole situation. It had been a huge relief when her father had smiled warmly at him and welcomed him in his house. She snuggled Alex when she heard him say that and had to stop herself from jumping over him and covering him of kisses. She had made him go through so much even when she didn’t mean to… Alex hadn’t deserved what she did at all, he didn’t deserved going through that pain and fear of losing her, she was sure some really bad memories had come back because of it and she hated herself for that. Anouk had always knew and still maintained that she wasn’t going to forgive herself ever for that. “I love you.” She simply said to his answer and her dad smiled bright at him.

A lot of people were ‘ready’ to handle Anouk but only a few could really do so. She saw how he was looking at her and loved it, mentally going through all the dresses she had bought. For once she believed what Scarlett had said about Alex being jealous because he seemed more… free around here. Not having to hide had a really good side effect on both of them. Even though he tensed a bit when she kissed him Anouk noticed her was more into it than when they were in Paris, maybe because here there was no need to hold back though there they didn’t have to hold back either when they were alone, but it was as if that fear was ever present if they were back home. He confirmed what she had thought and she smiled back at him. She was so glad being free. Bursting into laughs she watched as Alex blushed and her father left, being finally alone in the room the two of them and it was going to be that way for one week. A room for the two of them and once they closed the door no one will disturb them, no one will wonder what they were doing inside and no one will care. “You do realize we are alone, completely and absolutely alone right?” She raised her eyebrow and laughed when he pulled her down on the bed and got on the top of her, that was getting interesting though she knew they weren’t going too far. If only he knew how much willpower she had to use to not attack him… She surrounded his neck with her arms and started playing with his hair.

Anouk needed him, and drank from his kisses as if she hadn’t been kissed before, and she certainly hadn’t been kissed in such a way. She felt that kiss everywhere, fire spreading through her body as her lips melted against his. Alex was one hell of a kisser and he had the power to make her forget the world around her completely and she had hard time thinking, but why would she need to think anyway? Right now all she had in mind was him. She laughed a bit when she heard Scarlett going up stairs. “I’m definitely scolding her for that.” She said referring to the names she was calling Alex for not taking her bags upstairs. She traced the line of his jaw with a fingertip, memorizing his face so she could dream about him later and then went for another kiss. If this was the way their holidays were going to be… she didn’t mind it one little bit. Not at all. “She won’t, I am not going to allow her to get between us. I will make sure of spending enough time with her though.” She hoped Scarlett would find a hot guy to hook up with during the week and Alex and her would have more time to spend it together.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 752
NOTES, because they are adorable ^^

[alexei leon fournier]

The word ‘love’ wasn’t something that was simple and easy to say. Sure people everywhere used that word on anyone and everyone saying that they loved them, but the words held something more. It was something heavy and strong and something that was not to be taken lightly, especially if it was used on a girl. When you told a girl that you loved them it meant that you wanted to commit to them, that they meant so much more to you and that was why Alex always had to be sure of his feelings with a girl before he ever used that word. It was only said once and that was to his first girlfriend, the one whom he lost virginity with. The only other woman he had ever said that word to was his mother, she was the only one who knew how much Alex would go through to be a perfect little gentlemen when he was younger. When Anouk said that she loved him, although she had said it many a times before, for some reason it felt different to him, her eyes were sparkling brightly and she said it as if her world depended on him and that was what made the fiery flow of emotions go through him at that moment. “I love you too.” There, he had said it, and it was truly meant.

Was he ready to handle her? Could he handle her? Now that was a question he had no answer too, sure she was giving up drinking and drugs for him and that was enough but he would be able to help her stop from relapsing? He knew how tough it was going to be on her, knew that she probably had withdrawals going through her body, Alex had seen enough documentaries in his time to show him what people went through when they gave up something they loved doing; it was a tough road. He hoped that she didn’t give up much because he was going to let go during this holiday; even if he didn’t want to he was going to do it for her because he wanted her to know how much he loved her. He was going to take her out, to parties, let her have a few drinks here and there, but the only thing that he wouldn’t let her go near was the drugs; that was going to ruin her and he didn’t want her to be ruined. He laughed when she questioned him. She was right, there were going to be no disturbances, no listening out for when their parents would just suddenly come into the house, no having to wait until their parents were gone to kiss, hug and snuggle under the covers; they were free now, they could do whatever they wanted. “I know, feels great doesn’t it?” Chuckling, he closed his eyes as she played with his hair; her hands always went to his hair whenever they were in a heated moment. Leaning closer to her he sighed, pouting his lips outwards and pecking her lips with his.

Their kisses were more passionate now, had more feeling, because they…well he, wasn’t worried about getting caught anymore; it was easier to just kiss her, easier to touch her wherever he wanted. He laughed, nodding his head at her. “I can’t wait for you to do that, she deserves it I think.” Laughing, he skimmed his nose up her throat, kissing her at every little interval there was. His body was pressed flush against hers, his arms on either side of her head, supporting him upwards as he looked down at her with love. Closing his eyes as he snuggled into her neck, humming happily. “Good, we’ll find her some guy to go off with and then we’ll be fine on our own.” As he was speaking he let his hands trail down her body, stopping at her hips and then squeezing them. “I want you to myself this week, no one coming between us at all.” Picking his head up he kissed her once more. “I hope you won’t get bored of me that easily.”

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word count// 693!
thoughts// aww <3

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk was a lot of things and she took a lot of things lightly, but she never ever used the word love in other boy. Sure she had said it millions times to her friends and her family but if she hadn’t even been able to call a guy her boyfriend why would she say that words to them? Along with the romantic stuff she had saved the word for him and so when she said it now it was full of meaning. Every time she said it to him the meaning only got bigger instead of smaller because she loved him more and more. Hearing Alex say them filled every corner of her with happiness and a warm feeling spread across her chest. She had suffered so much to be able to enjoy this moment that even know she had a hard time believing it was all true. Sometimes at mornings she will woke up thinking it was all another dream just like it had happened so many time before, but once she looked to her side and found him there all her fears vanished. Anouk was worried Alex will discover the hard time she was having with withdrawal, that she wasn’t good enough hiding it because Scarlett had been able to tell but so far he hadn’t commented and that was okay. She didn’t want him going through this with her, he will suffer more than he needed or deserved to and that was something she wasn’t going to allow anymore. Now that they were alone she was so going to enjoy his company not allowing those things to cross her mind.

It had been tiresome for her to hide, she had wanted to take his hands so many times but couldn’t and when they were on the street he will always act paranoid and will restrain himself from touching her most of the time. But right now they didn’t need to and Alex was showing her how much he liked that. She couldn’t imagine how much he would free himself, how much passion he would show once they were alone. His kisses were intoxicating, it made her skin burn her mind go blank and her body tingle. She smiled against his lips. “If I knew you will like this, I would have dragged you here sooner.” She said partly joking and partly not. She yearned for him so much, she needed him. Each touch was better than the other and she couldn’t focus on anything but him and the way he was touching and kissing her. She said something about Scarlett but the information slipped right through her brain without registering so she just mumbled. When he kissed her neck, one of her weakness, she titled her head to the side to give him better access and moaned a little. If Alex kept that way she was so going to attack him, but she tried to control herself for him. If he thought he was doing and effort that was because he wasn’t in her skin right at that moment. “I’ll take her hunting boys, I swear I am going to find her someone.” She said her breathing quick now that he was trailing his hands down her body; she opened her eyes to look at him and smiled at his words.

This was the two of us, alone at last with no one around to catch them, no more hiding, no more fear and no more restrain… at least not as much as before. She wanted him for herself too; she was going to concentrate all her energies in finding Scarlett a partner so she could spend more time with him. She wanted to do all that normal stuff couples did, she wanted to go to the cinema, she wanted to walk down the streets with his arms around her, she wanted to take his hand without having him worrying about someone watching them. She allowed her hands to go from his hair to his chest memorizing his body with her hands. Anouk kissed him back trying to convey in that kiss all her love, though that was impossible because no one would be able to ever measure it. She pressed her body more against him until there was no space between them, her hands now slipped under his shirt and up his back, she could feel the scar. She wanted to make the pain it brought to him vanish with her touch, she wanted to make that scar beautiful. “That’s not possible. You are my everything, my life. How could I ever grow bored of someone who is part of me?”

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 776
NOTES, I wish my relationships had been this way... even with all the hiding thing haha

[alexei leon fournier]

Was it normal to have this weird warmth running through his body? Was it normal to have sweaty palms, a fast beating heart and adrenaline rush through his veins? Because every time he was with Anouk that seemed to happen, every time he saw her, a smile made its way onto his face and every time he touched her, his heart beat rhythm heightened just by a few. Everything felt great, it was just perfect for him now and now that they were in Sydney it was all so much better. He hoped that whenever he said those three words, she would understand how much he actually meant it. Because he did. He now realized how much she meant to him and how much he would do just for her. If she asked him to go skinny dipping even, he probably just might do that, depending on whether there was people around or not, but he would because he loved her. Wasn’t that what love made you do? The weird things that your beloved asked you to do? Because if it wasn’t then he was probably under some sort of spell, and this spell was something he loved because Anouk bewitched him in such a way that he couldn’t help but feel anything but adoration for her; he felt slightly guilty now for not ever seeing her in a way that was more than a brother and sister relationship because she was amazing.

He chuckled and gave a shrug of his lips as well as shoulders. “Well couldn’t have you too eager now could we? After all, you have to wait for good things, and my love for you is a very good thing so I wasn’t going to show you how I would act.” He let out a laugh before continuing with what he was doing before. His voice was soft, gentle, mesmerizing even because he wanted this night to be about them. Even if they had just landed in this house a few moments ago, he didn’t want to leave her just yet to go talk to her father because all he wanted to do was inhale every inch of her. He wanted to memorize every bit of her skin because ever since they had started dating, Anouk was the only one doing the mesmerizing but now that they were in Sydney he was going to take his time and drink in every essence of her. His eyes were closed as he skimmed along her neck, not even bothering to hear her response because all he wanted was her at that moment. Smiling into her skin as she gave him more access, he sighed, hot breath falling against her neck as he kissed her and kissed her. The moan that escaped from her mouth urged him to carry on, so he did. His fingers laced through hers as he put her arms above her head and stopped for a second when she spoke. He opened his eyes to just take a look at her and smiled. “That’s good, I’m guessing this isn’t one of the reasons why right?” A slight shudder escaped from his body when his fingers left hers and she ran her hands through his body. This was becoming too much all too suddenly, he was afraid of it but he loved it too.

Letting out a soft groan as she pressed herself against him, he suddenly cursed himself mentally for being such a gentlemen because if he wasn’t, if he was someone like Cass, he would have ripped her clothes there and then but he wasn’t Cass, he was Alex and he had to remind himself that as her hands slipped up his shirt and ran through his body. “That’s very beautiful of you my dear.” Leaning forward he pecked her lips once before holding onto her hands and pulling them away from his body with a sigh. “We should stop now.” He gave a nervous laugh and quickly got off the bed, stretching his body and running a hand through his hair. Why did he just do that?

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word count// 684!
thoughts// aww, you will alba, you will ^^

[anouk lirienne fournier]

What Alexei was doing to her felt great, felt amazing, felt perfect and right. Anouk loved him, and she was making sure he knew it. The way she touched him and kissed him it was very different from lust; it was love though it was quite a heated love. If she were with another boy she would be naked by now and he probably would too, but this was Alex and she loved him so she was restraining herself from undressing him. This was heaven, it was way better than in her dreams, he tasted better and he felt better pressed against her body, all warm and soft. She hoped he was feeling the same way she did, and it seemed so because he kept what he was doing. As his breathe touched her neck when he spoke, shivers ran down her and she got goose bumps all over skin. Her train of thoughts dispersed and she didn’t want to think anymore, she just wanted him, all of him. He laced their fingers and put her arms above her head; she squeezed them and bit her lip hard shutting her eyes. It was taking all her willpower and strength to not just jump all over him and it was the most difficult task she had done in life, ever more difficult than withdrawal. Anouk didn’t hear what he said at all, and she didn’t bother to answer because she couldn’t find her voice, she was concentrating on breathing and kept her heart on her chest because it was beating so hard that it seemed it wanted to get out.

When he stopped she opened her eyes with some effort and looked at him, smiling. “No, this is not the only reason. I also want you for myself all week.” Though if there was something of that she wasn’t going to complain either. Anouk could feel his shudders and she loved the fact it was her doing. She had the power to make him feel like that, to make him show some emotion, some desire and right now she could see lust in his eyes. When he groaned… she lost total control and it took every ounce of her strength to not go further. She attacked his lips though because it was her only way of release, he wasn’t the only one hot there. But suddenly it was all over, he removed her hands off his body and go off the bed, she looked at him trying to suppress the scold on her face. Anouk was so used to this, whenever things got in the right mood he would ran away scared and stop. As she got her breathe back and her heart beat normally all the lust and mood faded. “Yes, I guess we should.” Though she didn’t agree one little bit there was nothing she could do either. She got up of the bed eventually too and went to look outside the window so Alex won’t see what she was feeling right now. She was getting impatient and a bit annoyed at how he was making her wait, she had already wait three years and she thought she could hold on a bit more, but it was very different yearning for someone you never tasted and yearning for someone who won’t stop touching you.

Anouk didn’t want him to stop, she didn’t want him to be a gentleman for once but she will have to just handle it until he was ready, after all that was love right? Giving in your partners desires and wished and making him happy even if that didn’t make you happy. When she had her emotions and expression under control she turned to look at him leaning against the window frame. “Go get a shower first love, I will wait for you here and unpack my things. You have to get ready for my father.” She knew it wasn’t going to be a hard thing; her dad will be gentle and won’t stick his nose into matters that weren’t of his concern. He surely wanted to talk about his chick and the wedding and how happy he was of having her daughter back and will try to embarrass her with stories of the past and maybe even pictures. Her dad might be hippie but it was a dad after all.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 726
NOTES, I am kinda having one in my head with chico hahaha

[alexei leon fournier]

Even Alex felt like berating himself for stopping what he was doing to Anouk because his lips were on fire, his body was on fire, his hands just wanted to touch every inch of Anouk’s soft, white skin but he couldn’t and he wouldn’t. He was raised a gentlemen and this was actually the first time he wanted to rebuke them, this was the first time he wanted to just put that niceness to the side and do whatever he wanted because he was sure that Anouk wouldn’t mind, after all she had done this with a lot of guys, if they went further than expected than they were meant to, then there was no problem was there? But as soon as that thought hit him, he knew he had to stop because Alex wasn’t just another guy in Anouk’s life, he was the one, the one whom she trusted and loved so much and she was expecting more from him, he was sure of that. But the way she shivered, the way every lustful moan escaped from her mouth, it just made him want to start all over again; so really, him not stopping was all Anouk’s fault and it took a lot of effort to just stop himself from going any further.

He liked the fact that he could get Anouk’s heart beat to increase, it was cute and perfect; just perfect because she looked so beautiful…so sexy when she moaned and when she had her eyes closed, it made Alex want to throw something because he knew he wasn’t going to watch her like that for a long time. “That’s fine then, I want you all this week to myself too, and if Scarlett doesn’t have a guy we’re going to lock this room.” Wiggling his eyebrows, he let out a chuckle before his shudder came out. He hadn’t meant to let it out, he didn’t want her to know that he was as turned on by this as she was because she might have been able to use it against him and he didn’t want that, it was already uncomfortable for him because….well because he was a guy and he didn’t want her to notice what he had going on at all so he had to stop. He looked away from her when he finally stopped, so that she wouldn’t be able to see him, he didn’t want her taunting and teasing at that moment. Putting his head in his hands, he took deep breaths in and out, trying to control his breathing and trying to control the urge in his pants. Finally, after a few, long, deep breaths he managed to calm himself down and turned around to look at Anouk with a small, regretful smile. Licking his lips to try and get rid of the dryness he watched as she looked out of the window, he knew she wanted it to go further, he just knew it! But…he wasn’t sure. He just wasn’t sure yet.

He wanted to give into her wishes, he was so close to always doing it but he was too stubborn, more stubborn than her and if Anouk had been a bit more stubborn than him then maybe he would have accepted what she wanted and done it with her, he actually would have because if touches and kisses with Anouk were like this then he didn’t want to give it up at all. He crosses his arms over his chest and sighed, nodding his head at her. “I shall go get freshened up and meet you here in…. fifteen minutes?” Smiling, he got off the bed and moved towards her. Kissing her lightly once more he pulled back, running a hand down one of her arms before turning around and flipping through his suitcase for a towel and some clothes. Once he had them in his arms he turned around and blew her a kiss before going into the bathroom and locking it behind him. A cold shower was what he needed.

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word count// 673!
thoughts// heheh i like ^^

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk loved him and because she did she wasn’t going to scold him or lure him into giving in this for once. Though it was becoming harder by moments and especially tonight it was as if she just couldn’t stop herself from wanting him that badly. But Alex loved her and he wanted it to be special for both of them, different and of course he needed to be ready. Even if she knew he was as turned on as her and it was also difficult for him to control himself she just couldn’t get herself to use it against him, that wouldn’t be fair and what if he regretted it later? That would only be a mistake. The way he was trying to hide his turn on was cute, she didn’t hide it though, she wanted him to know. Anouk didn’t know if Alex didn’t trust himself or her, he should know better than to believe she was going to force him into anything, but this wasn’t a matter of trusting, he was ashamed of showing how much he desired her. She smiled satisfied; at least she wasn’t the only one suffering. She chuckled along with him and shook her head trying to calm herself down; this was the first time her needs weren’t satisfied. “I don’t know why the locking though. First because I never failed finding a guy even if it’s not for me and second because it’s not as if we are going to do much of that.” She raised her eyebrow but bit her lip. She didn’t mean letting that one slip but all her focus was on not jumping into him, a bit of sarcasm wasn’t going to kill him.

The views from the window were beautiful and the glass was cold so it helped with the calming. Sydney was very different from Paris in so many ways. Anouk loved being so far away from home for once; she really needed the change of air. She had thought about coming with his father for a while but for the wrong reasons and not with Alex, now she was there with him and it felt great. She looked at him, her head titled to the side. She knew if she pushed just a little bit… if she pushed a bit harder then she will have him, completely and fully. But was it worth it? Was that all she wanted from him? Sex? No, she wanted a relationship with him, she wanted him forever and more. She wanted the hand holding, the couple stuff, the kisses, the ‘I love you’… sex was nothing compared to how complete she felt when she was with him. But it surely helped. She smiled at him when he walked towards her and kissed her. “I’ll see you in fifteen minutes then, don’t drown.” Once the door was safely locked behind him Anouk collapsed, she sat on the floor, her head between her hands and shut her eyes closed. Alex was going to kill her, she wanted to scream in frustration but she controlled herself.

After a bit she decided to get up and walked toward her suitcase getting ready the clothes she was going to wear for dinner. Anouk had the impression tonight her father was going to make her cook because it was an especial occasion. She wondered where the woman was because she hadn’t seen her at all and her father hadn’t mentioned her, the house was also empty of that woman touch. She looked around the room unpacking her things while she waited for Alex to get out of the bathroom and trying to control her anger and need. This time it had been harder than any other times because he had been free and more passionate.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 630
NOTES, just wishing my dreams would come true *¬* hahaha

[alexei leon fournier]

Even though boys didn’t go through as much pain as girls did, they did go through similar things. Sure boys didn’t have that time of month but if someone hurt them in that region down there, then they would be in serious pain for some time, sure they didn’t go through pregnancy and didn’t understand how it toiled up on a woman, but they worked hard and made sue everyone was happy. They mainly felt same through emotions, heartbreak, love, depression; it was all the same for boys. When Alexei realized how much he loved Anouk, he had butterflies flying around his stomach, he had the sweaty palms and the weak knees whenever Anouk was around, his tongue dried out the first few times when he spoke to her after he had come to his own realization. It was all the same; literally for him it was all the same. He wasn’t too sure if Anouk had felt the same way, but it seemed like she did, except for her voice drying out whenever she spoke to him. Of course Anouk had enough practice in speaking with him, she new the way he spoke and acted and he knew the same, though she knew more than him. It was weird how they had been living together for a couple of years but they still didn’t know much about each other. He bit his lower lip, a small blush of pink crossing the back of his neck; he was hoping that she wouldn’t notice. “Yes, but I’d rather not have Scarlett coming in at two thirty in the morning, drunk, and slipping in between us.”

Blushing was really embarrassing, after all it was actually caused by embarrassment or humiliation, and Alex felt embarrassed that Anouk would bring up a topic like that because he wasn’t even ready. Was it so wrong to want your first time having sex with someone in a special moment? He knew he wasn’t doing any good because he had lost control of his urges many a times and it was frustrating that he always had to be the responsible one, but he was doing this for their good. If sex wasn’t good, then what if the chemistry between the both of them just fizzled out? He knew that sex really wasn’t an important factor for a relationship but Anouk had so much of it that he didn’t know whether this was important to her or not, even if she told him that she would wait it was obvious that she couldn’t by the impatient tone in her voice. Nodding his head, he chuckled a little, smiling and walked back to the bathroom. Once inside the bathroom he let out a deep sigh, running a hand through his hair and then tugging at the ends. God she was delicious and she was all his.

Starting the shower, he got in and sighed, letting the cold water run down his body. Why was it so difficult to have control today? Why couldn’t he just be as normal as possible? Because he was free that’s why and now it sucked, because he knew he wouldn’t be able to contain himself. It was funny, before all he wanted was freedom but now he didn’t; now he wanted someone to be there to enforce the rules so he could follow them. After a complicated shower with a million thoughts running through his mind, he finally got out, wrapping a towel around his body and getting ready to walk out but he stopped himself quickly. There didn’t need to be any more frustrations. Changing in the comfort of the bathroom, he finished quite quickly and walked out with a cough. A pair of jeans and a long jumper should do, it was light cotton so he wouldn’t have to die of heat. Keeping a smile on his face he watched Anouk for a second or so before moving his gaze towards the door. “Ready to go?”

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word count// 664!
thoughts// aww they will one day! ^^