drag me headfirst; fearless. 'anouk · COMPLETE

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk cursed herself for letting that tone slip through her voice and reach him. She hadn’t intent to because she knew how hard this was for him, but it was hard for her too and sometimes she just wished to shout him that he needed to wake up, that being a gentleman wasn’t always good and that certain things needed for him to not be one. She snickered when he answered, imagining the whole scene in her head. It would surely be something Scarlett would do so maybe the lock was after all a good idea. At nights she loved to sleep all curled up besides Alex, and she always touching him to make sure he was still there. She also loved sleeping with his arms around her, protecting her from any harm, there in his arms she had always felt safe and powerful as if nothing in the world could touch her or hurt her because he was going to protect her. Anouk wasn’t going to allow Scarlett to ruin those moments in their nights. “I see your point, maybe it’s not such a bad idea.” She said laughing a bit and still looking outside the window to the beach, she couldn’t wait to go down there with him.

Alex walked to the bathroom and closed the door. She was trying, she was really trying hard and so was he. Anouk tried to convince herself that she had to do this easier for Alex instead of difficult but the lingerie she was getting out of the suitcase and into the wardrobe had been bought with another purpose in mind. Scarlett had promised this was going to work on him, she hadn’t been so sure at first but now there was no doubt about it. If she used it Alex was going to break down, and as tempting as the idea seemed and sounded now she wasn’t sure it was such a good idea. He was really trying hard to not give into this, she couldn’t tell if it was because he wasn’t ready or because he wanted to make it especial for both of them. She snickered bitterly, her mother had given her the talk long ago, telling her the first time was always especial and everything, well, hers had been uncomfortable and painful and everything but pleasure. Of course everything got better with practice and coming to think of it something good was going to get out of all her sleeping around. Her first time with Alex would really be special and something she will actually enjoy. She was sure it was going to be perfect because what they already did had been amazing enough, he had the ability of making her feel like no other, of making her lose control with such little touches.

Another thought crossed her mind, one in which Alex was trying to push this as far as it would go because he wasn’t that good at it, but as soon as it crossed her mind she laughed it off. Even if that was the case, which she really doubted, she wasn’t going to stop loving him. Anouk loved Alex, not the physical relationship they had, and if she was impatient to have sex with him was because she wanted to be his, completely and absolutely, all tied down, in all the senses of the word. Of course he could use that against her to get her to marry him, but that was something they had already discussed. She bit her lip, the idea of marriage didn’t sound that bad if it was with him, and she could remember she wanted to get married when she was younger, until her parents divorced. The bathroom door opened and she hurried to hide the last pieces of lingerie before he could see them, he smiled at her and she returned the smile. “The question here is if you are ready.” She said laughing and taking his hand to go down the stairs and into the living room where her father was sitting watching TV. He turned his head when they entered the room and smiled at them. “Hey kids, everything good up there? Grab a beer and sit here with me.” He said nodding toward the table. Anouk eyed the beers warily, not sure of what to do. She had stopped drinking after all, but a beer wasn’t much of an alcoholic drink was it? “Yes dad, everything is great.” She said, sitting in the couch and dragging Alex down with her.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 756
NOTES, I will have to track him down first though haha.

[alexei leon fournier]

He loved sleeping with her. He loved the idea of having her curled up next to him, legs tangled with his and her head on his chest because it just seemed romantic. Call Alexei a weird romantic or a boy with too much feminine feelings that it didn’t seem as if he was a boy, but he loved simple ideas like that. The simplest touches could do wonders couldn’t they? The first graze of a hand that made you shiver, the first lock of eyes which made you think that your other half was somehow able to manage looking into your soul; it was weird but it was too damn good too. He had no idea what to think of everything with Anouk anymore, it was different, difficult and just plain fantastic too. Every single touch that he shared with her, made him feel as if their relationship would actually last quite a while, here they both were, forsaking all sort of taboos and the anger that their (maybe) parents would feel for this relationship and he wasn’t going to give this up to soon. They both had to be in it for the long run, because what was the point of doing everything, what was the point of wasting time with one another of they weren’t going to be in a relationship for at least a couple or so years? There his mind went off wandering again, it was annoying. He had come to Sydney to relax, not to have these thoughts enter his mind once more. Smiling, he just nodded his head at her; see he did know what he was talking about at times.

Cold showers were nice…sort of but he didn’t think he could handle them anymore; he didn’t want the coldness anymore. Even while he was showering all he could think about was Anouk and how he would love to do things with her, letting his mind get carried away like an idiot so he forced himself to stop, forced himself to stop and continue showering. It was difficult to stay on the good side when you had a girlfriend who was far too sexy and beautiful, it really was and he was sure that a lot of boys would agree with him on something like that because it was true. She was just difficult to control…but he couldn’t blame her now, he just couldn’t. He was turning into a whiny little child, what was wrong with him? It was time for him to man up and take control, sex didn’t mean going into a relationship too fast, it just meant that you had so much connection with the person you love that you need a way to contain it all…so maybe sex was a good idea. As he left the room, he still wasn’t too sure yet but his mind was still pondering over the topic.

He shrugged his shoulders at her with a smile, “I hope the sweaty patches underneath my armpits don’t show, otherwise he’ll know I’m not ready.” Shaking his head, he sighed and smiled when she took his hand, her hand a bit too small in his big ones. It was cute the way their hands just suddenly laced and fitted together; yes boys did think about those kinds of stuff, it wasn’t just girls who loved the way hand holding felt. Grabbing two beers in one hand before Anouk dragged him down in the sofa, he raised an eyebrow and passed her one, he was sure she could have one. Beer wasn’t that much of an alcoholic drink, which would change Anouk so it was good. Smiling at her awkwardly, he leaned back a little in the chair, opening the beer with his hand and taking a sip of it. It was cool and refreshing, hopefully it would cam his insides quickly. “Yeah, everything’s fine thanks.” Licking his lips, he took a deep breath and sat up straight, waiting for the barrage of questions that were going to be thrown at him.

tagged// anouk!
outfit//click!
word count// 673!
thoughts// haha go on his personal website...you might be able to find him ^^

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Every time Anouk looked at Alex she loved him even more and she had thought that wasn’t possible! But he had a way of getting underneath her skin reaching places no one had reach before. It was a bit weird thinking she barely knew a thing about him because he never completely opened up. Though she knew the way his face looked like when he was worried, or happy, or sad, or turned on. She knew every expression of his face, she could read him like a book, and she knew his habits and the way he spoke. For the past three years she had learnt everything about him, she had paid attention to every little detail. Alex also knew nothing about her because well, he hadn’t been paying enough attention before, she hope that would change now. Anouk smiled at him and chuckled shaking her head. “Nothing is going to happen.” She loved the way his hand felt on hers, the way they fit together perfectly and the sense of freedom because they didn’t have to hide. Her father looked happy to see them and he looked even happier to see that display of affection. Alex grabbed two beers and he offered her one, she took it and opened it, sipping from it. Her father just nodded and watched the TV some more, then he pressed the mute and looked at them. “So… Anouk speaks a lot about you, kid. She said you are also an artist and that you have your own gallery?”

Anouk looked at him and smiled, her dad was trying to get to know Ales, he wanted to know more about the one his daughter loved. “Indeed, I am very proud of him.” She squeezed his hand and smiled at him. There he was, besides her, trying hard to pass her father’s test, to be someone she will be proud of but she already was. She dragged him back and leaned against him; she took his hand and passed it above her shoulder lacing their fingers together. “It’s great she found someone to settle down, when she was a kid she wanted to get married in the beach, then she just… changed.” It was true, as she grew up her ideas changed specially since her mother and father got divorced and he left. She hated the fights between them, the constant arguments about why he was never home, why he had to leave for such a long time. Anouk didn’t want a marriage like that, she didn’t want the love she felt for Alex to fade away between arguments and fights, she wanted to keep it the way it was. “Dad! Alex doesn’t need to know that!” She scolded him taking another sip of her drink. Her father smiled and shrugged his shoulders. She got more comfortable in Alex’s chest and played with his fingers.

It felt great, having him so up close to her, being able to enjoy such simple touches that showed so much love. But the way her father was treating them made her thought about her mom and her step-dad and the reaction they will have if they ever know, she knew they couldn’t hide forever. Her father knew a lot of things about her, things she didn’t want him to know. “How did you managed to get hold of her anyway?” He suddenly got more serious and he frowned looking at Alex. Anouk wondered what on hell he would ask him and suddenly got afraid. “Do you love her? Do you really love her?” Anouk’s eyes grew bigger and she looked at him. Well just like her, her father had never been one of sugarcoating things, he will just ask straight and square.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 623
NOTES, does he have one? lol

[alexei leon fournier]

He nodded his head at her reassurance to him, at least she believed in him and she thought that nothing would happen. Hopefully it wouldn’t, Alex was never good when it came to meeting other people’s parents, and after all first impressions were always important, very important. Even after the first five seconds, a person’s mind already came up with an idea of the person that they were meeting, they would have already judged them on their looks, the few words spoken and the sense of dress sense that the person held; everything was easy and simple to understand. He had tried to make himself look decent before he got to meet Anouk’s father, and he was sure that he had already made a good first impression, hopefully. Smiling as Anouk answered, he nodded his head at her father. “Yes s…Lenny, that’s right. I own my own gallery and am an artist.” Smiling awkwardly, he squeezed Anouk’s hand as she said that she was proud of him. His head ducked down for a second, happy that he was actually making her happy.

He was glad that she would be able to vouch for him in anything, after all she did love him a lot and her answering before he actually even said anything showed how much she loved him and how much she wanted to put him in a good light in her father’s view. He was glad that she was trying to get her father to like him, at least in that way he didn’t have to feel nervous every few seconds. He wondered if the both of them, Anouk and her dad, could hear how fast his heart was pumping, could they hear the blood rushing through his veins, because his entire body seemed to be trying to make him acknowledge that to make him even more nervous. Could Anouk feel the beads of perspiration forming on his palms? Because he was sure that she could and sooner or later she would remove her hand from his own…maybe. Leaning back as Anouk moved his hand to put them around her shoulders, his fingers tensed a little, wondering what her father thought of it, but at the smile the man flashed at him, Alex smiled back and relaxed against the sofa; holding Anouk close to him. He nodded his head to what Anouk’s father said about marriage and Anouk’s idea on it. He raised an eyebrow with a small smile and looked at Anouk as she let out a small outburst of her own in return to his words.

“I know, she doesn’t think that marriage is a great idea, but apparently she’s been having some different thoughts lately.” Looking down at Anouk as she played with his fingers, he smiled at her, raising an eyebrow mischievously, maybe it might make her dad happy to hear about that and maybe it wouldn’t, but Alex was happy at the idea of marriage and that Anouk was even thinking about it. He ignored Anouk’s gaze at her father’s questions and kept his head down. Speaking slowly, he played with the lid of the beer can. “Well, as any couple, we had our ups and downs, we had to get through some tough times. I wasn’t into the idea of loving her so much, that’s true, I won’t deny that…but I do.” Slowly he looked up at Anouk’s father and locked eyes with him so that the man would know the proper truth. “I do love her, she means everything to me now. “

tagged// anouk!
outfit//click!
word count// 592!
thoughts// i think he does...sorry this wasn't that good, haven't been feeling well lately ><

[anouk lirienne fournier]

This was difficult on him she could tell but Anouk wanted him to know that she was going to be there every step of the way. She had always supported and had been there whenever he needed, but Alexei had never realized it much or never used it before. Now it seemed as if he needed for her to be there as much as she needed him and that made her incredible happy. She wanted this to go smoothly for the hell that was to come; if at least they had her father on their side things won’t be as complicated as if they were completely alone. She had made up her mind about what she will do if they tried to break them apart, and none of her ideas included them breaking up. After all she had done to get him and how much she loved him there was no way Anouk wasn’t going to fight back with all her might, and if things went wrong… Alex had suggested before the idea of eloping. She would actually prefer for it to be just a runaway, not something that included marriage. She looked up at him with shiny eyes, really happy of having him there. Her father looked carefully at every movement between them, he had never seen his daughter so… in love, so happy and glowing. He could relax now that he knew she was in good hands.

“It’s good to hear someone as young as you can make a good living, most kids your age will just waste their time.” Anouk smiled happy that his father approved of the choice Alex had made for a living. Most parents would cry in horror if their children claimed they wanted to be artist, the image that will go through his head was a poor man living in a messy house all covered in paint, anti social and all that stuff. Her father had never cared about her choice as long as she was happy with it and in fact he had encouraged her to develop her talent, same as her mother. She noticed Alex’s sweaty palms since she was holding his hand and smiled, he always worried too much but it was also good to know he cared enough about her and the relationship with her father as to get so nervous. Anouk kissed the back of his hand and then turned it to kiss his palm too; trying to give him some courage, all her father was doing was praising him all the time. She frowned at Alex’s comment on marriage, they had already discussed the topic before and though she was changing her mind that didn’t mean she was still used to the idea. “That’s because you had gotten the idea in my head, I totally blame you for that one.” She said still frowning. It was true the idea wasn’t so horrifying if it was with him, but there were a lot of fears she had to get over.

Her father looked at her with surprised in his face; he couldn’t believe Anouk was actually thinking of marrying after so many years of avoiding and dreading the topic. She had always told him she wasn’t going to ever get married, or settle down for that matter and now there she was, doing both. “Woah kid, you are someone really especial, I can tell. And not only because of the way she looks at you and speaks about you but because you actually got her into thinking about marrying!” Her father let out a good laugh and sipped from his beer, Anouk feeling really uncomfortable tried to ignore the conversation while focusing on Alex’s hand. Though the next topic throw her out of it and made her cringe at Alex’s answer. Not because what he said about the love thing, she knew very well the answer to that question but because he subtly raised the topic of her suicide attempt. Her father frowned too, he had demanded her to come here as soon as she was released of the hospital, he had shout at her mother for not taking better care of her, she won’t ever be able to forget that scene. “As long as you love her now it’s fine with me. I know I am leaving my daughter in good hands already.” He said, his smile slowly creeping back on his face. Anouk smiled too, and looked up at Alex, kissing him softly. “I love you too, my life.” She whispered and smiled to her dad.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 760
NOTES, o.o never heard about it and I've been stalking him for the past year lol aww hope you get better!! you know I love your posts <3

[alexei leon fournier]

Alex was someone who couldn’t read a person properly, that was pretty much obvious otherwise he would have noticed the signs that Anouk liked him and would have noticed that she was getting tired of him stopping everything he did with her when things in the moment became heated. So for him, it was difficult to try and guess what Anouk’s father thought. He knew the man liked it though, because there was just something in the way his eyes glanced over Anouk’s and his joint hands, and the smiles that he gave off whenever Anouk answered a question before him. So the guy did like him? Alex liked to have a right answer in front of him, because guesswork was never an easy thing. He smiled, trying to not look at Anouk as she kissed the back of his hand and then his palm, it wasn’t embarrassing, well yes it was embarrassing because she was doing this in front of her father; he would have liked to do things like this in the privacy of their own bedroom; Alex was never good with public displays of affection; especially in front of parents. “Thank you sir, but I’m not as young as I look, so a career is best for a person my age.” He chuckled and shook his head. “But I agree there are a lot of people who are wasting their time at the same age as me.”

Alexei always knew what he wanted to do from a young age, not since the day he was born because all he could think at that time was milk and toys but yes, art was an important part of his life. He knew a lot of people didn’t know what they wanted to do as a teenager, they were still experiencing life and trying to figure out what kind of job would be the best, but not Alex, he had already confirmed his life story properly by the time he was fifteen years old. He did want to be married by the time he was thirty, anything past that would be far too old and he was sure that people wouldn’t see him in a good way by then if he was looking for a younger wife. He just chuckled at what Anouk said and shrugged his shoulders; he didn’t regret pushing the idea into her head one bit. Because he wanted her to think about marriage, he was pretty sure, no, he was absolutely sure that they were going to get married.

He wasn’t all too surprised by the slightly surprised look on the elder man’s face, it made Alex smirk though because it was funny how many people Anouk told, that she wouldn’t get married. He let out a laugh, “Yes, I do believe she’s been thinking about that topic quite a bit, but of course we won’t make any decisions yet, we’ve just gotten into the relationship after all.” He smiled, looking sideways at Anouk and raising an eyebrow at her. He took another sip of his beer, this time instead of unsure and nervousness in the pit of his stomach, he was at easy and enjoying every bit now. He nodded his head at the man once more. “Thank you Lenny, it means a lot that you’re fine with our relationship.” Smiling he looked at Anouk as she spoke, and nudged his nose against hers playfully, biting at her lip for a second before realising where he was. Looking slightly embarrassed he chuckled, “Now that means a lot.”

tagged// anouk!
outfit//click!
word count// 592!
thoughts//hmmm...i think you have to contact him through special people though, like his managers ^^ awww thank you <3

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk was glad her father wasn’t questioning Alexei and getting him more nervous than he already was. He was never one of displaying affection in public but she loved those little touches that could be done in public without people thinking they were inappropriate. She loved to have him near her, where she could touch him and know he was there, and what she loved the most was Alex’s smile on his face whenever she looked at him. She allowed them to talk without getting in the way, focusing on his breathing and his heartbeat and closing her eyes with happiness as the two most important man of her life get along well together. “You are young kid, you are.” Her father said and she laughed a bit. He always tried to act like a teen, to keep his young spirit and act the opposite way people expected him to act. “Most guys your age won’t be working and won’t even want to, honestly, I think you also deserve to enjoy while you can because when you are my age…” Anouk shook her head and opened her eyes to look at her father. “You should take a look at his work dad, he is brilliant.” She said proudly, knowing her father would appreciate the talent Alexei had for painting and admire it properly.

The idea of marriage had crossed Anouk’s mind, but only to reject it completely and absolutely. She dreaded the idea of being tied up in such a way, and not because she didn’t believe in spending the rest of her life with Alexei but because it was an unnecessary added pressure. What if something happened and they decided to end? They will have to go through the painful process of getting divorced, there would be fights and words that you will regret but won’t be able to take back. She didn’t want that with Alexei, she didn’t want what happened to her parents to happen to them too. She titled her head to stick her tongue out at him and made a face. But if Alexei really wanted to get married… then she will have to give in just like she always did. “I did, I thought about it and well, I thought if it was with him… but he is right dad, we just started.” Her father looked at her with a mischievous smile knowing the reason she was trying to drop the topic very well. She made a face at him but smiled. “Let me tell you something about her. When she starts thinking about something, she has her mind pretty much set in doing that something.” Her father snickered when Anouk threw a cushion at him. “You really are something.” He said to Alex and smiled.

But all her angriness faded away when Alex kissed her back. Her father laughed at Alex for being embarrassed and waved a hand at him, telling him to relax. “It’s great to see her so in love and for once touching someone in such a loving way. My daughter was never the romantic type.” Anouk threw a glance at his father, telling him with her eyes to not go further into the topic of past boyfriends and her love life. Which to be honest wasn’t much of a love life at all and more of a sexual one. “That’s because no one is like Alexei. And I’ve been the romantic kind of girl; I was just… waiting for the right one.” And for the first time in years Anouk blushed and looked embarrassed, she titled her head to hide it and looked at the couch, trying to not let them know. No girl liked to blush, it just gave away their emotions.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 624
NOTES, I feel like a stalker now haha

[alexei leon fournier]

Easy, simple and nice, that was how he liked it now. He hadn’t realized it but ever since he had gotten together with Anouk, he had changed in many ways. He liked living the fast life, he used to like having sex with girls and being a jerk, but now it was weird. It was as if she had scrambled up his brain and just fuzzed it about like a satellite on top of a building and then left him scrambled, freaked out and calm. It was a good feeling though, it was just weird to compare how he used to be before to how he was now because there was a lot more difference. Now he was waiting to have sex, now he was completely silent and wanted her to take lead when normally he liked to take the lead in a relationship. But it was only because of his lack of experience in that department, which was why he wanted her to take the lead. He was taking things slowly now because he wanted to revel in each little precious moment between the both of them; he could honestly say this was his true love…he wouldn’t just say it out loud now though, sure she was his true love but he couldn’t tell her that; just that he loved her; that was easy and simple enough, he didn’t need to over complicate things buy saying something like that. He nodded his head at Lenny, not responding to his reply about him being young, Alex didn’t feel young, now that he was in a relationship with Anouk, who was nineteen; quite younger than him, he felt weird, as if he was really old because of the five year gap between the both of them. “Haha, yes. I think I do enjoy my life more now, there’s no way this girl will let me work.” Chuckling, he nudged Anouk with his first finger of his hand and shook his head at Anouk’s compliment. “What? No, now you should see her work, she’s turning into quite the artist!”

He kept his gaze down for a few seconds as the topic of marriage resurfaced, this time with Anouk’s father involved, it was great that the man seemed to have already given him permission for everything…it seemed. He let out a little laugh, choosing not to comment because he knew Anouk didn’t like the talk about this topic yet, so he was giving her time to get used to it. Looking up he smiled. “I know what you mean, there are a lot of things she’s trying to get me to do because she has her mind set on it, though in the end she always weakens against me." Nudging his head against Anouk’s he rested his head on her shoulder after gently dropping it, his hand moved out of hers, wrapping it around the back of her waist instead. “Why thank you Lenny, you really are not what I expected either.”

Looking up at her, he moved his other hand so both of his hands joined together at her hips nicely, he snuggled into her a little before turning his head so he could look at her father. So it was weird now…Alex was actually comfortable sitting like this? In front of her father? He had no idea how he had suddenly changed so quickly but it seemed as if he was becoming the old Alex once more…just by a fraction though. “That’s right I think, she was waiting for me for so long that she saved all her romance for me because she knew I liked romance.” He smiled, turning his head to the side and nipping at her collarbone, his head was turned in such a way that he hoped her father didn’t see what he was doing. It was still quite embarrassing.

tagged// anouk!
outfit//click!
word count// 643!
thoughts//woop!

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Alexei had always been the impatient kind of guy who even scolded her for being too slow bringing him his beloved coffee. But since Audrey had told him to be patient she had been quite calm and seemed to take what she said at heart. Alex had always a lot of girls after him but he had never been much interested in them, he had never been a play boy like Anouk had been, and took things nice and slow, though she couldn’t tell about the sex thing since he never talked about that with her. She was sure all he was doing was because he wanted this to be especial for both of them, and she didn’t referred only to sex but to everything, the way they touched and behaved around each other, just like teenagers in love that couldn’t get enough of cheesy romantic stuff. Alex had also been always like a kid and he kept that childish side of him very well hidden and only allowed her to see it, he always liked to look mature and older as well as he never tried to shine, something that annoyed Anouk who had always pushed him to do something bigger with his art. He was doing it again, changing the topic from him towards hers, trying to hide his talent because he didn’t feel comfortable being the center of attention, something she quite enjoyed. But this was all about Alexei, her father knew enough about her art and her, and he wanted to get to know him. So Anouk frowned at Alex and scolded at him. “He knows what kind of artist I am Alex, it’s your amazing work the one he has to see.” She said shaking her head.

Her father laughed out loud seeing her scold Alex and smiled. He was amused by the whole situation and really happy for her daughter, it seemed he had gotten her to do things she had never do before and he had gotten her to drop drugs and alcohol as well as her flirting. “That little bounce of energy won’t let her mom and me rest at all when she was younger. Leave the kid alone Anouk, he will show his art when he is ready.” Anouk threw a murdered glance at her father, seeing how he took his side in the discussion. She smiled though because that meant her father totally approved of them both being together. She smacked Alex’s arm when he said she was trying to get him do things and that she always gave in when it come to him. It was true though but she didn’t want her father to know that she had a weakness. Not that he was stupid and hadn’t deduced it already, because as much as she had tried to it, when she spoke of him there was something in her voice that will give her away. “I am just showing you I can’t be such an stubborn horse as you are, someone has to be the mature one in this relationship and give in.” She said raising her eyebrow at him and laughing.

Alex was getting free by moments, and proof of it was the way he was nudging her and nipping at her neck, a shiver ran through her body as a smile appeared on her face. She resisted the urge of titling her head and devouring Alexei’s lips right there and then. Her blush faded away quickly when she felt his lips on her collarbone and she was glad of that. Her father laughed at them and sipped from his beer, relaxing against the couch and ready to turn the TV again, then a thought seemed to cross his mind and he stopped midway. “When and how are you planning to talk to Carine about this, Anouk?” Her father asked her, concern on his face. Anouk went a bit paler, she had never really thought about it, she wanted to keep things with Alex this way for as long as she could because telling her mother about this will meant a lot of unpleasant things were going to happen and she won’t be able to enjoy her relationship with him in a proper way until the waters calmed down. There was no way of even knowing if they were going to calm down or how long that would take. She looked at Alex, not knowing really how to answer or what to say. “I don’t know that… I hadn’t really thought about it.”

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 756
NOTES, alex being sort of... himself? impatient guy again hahaha

[alexei leon fournier]

Patience was never really a good virtue, that was what the old Alexei would say, he didn’t believe that it was, life was something that was supposed to be fast paced and fun, not with drinks and alcohol, but with something good and wholesome like art. He’d rather just go through life living with art and trying to do everything as quickly as possible, it was surprising that he took Audrey’s advice to heart, that he actually did slow down and decided to drink in the world like a thirsty child. He wasn’t a playboy, those types of guys did live life as fast as they could by skipping from one girl to another, and he could never do that. Even though he seemed like a snooty jerk from the outside, once you actually got to know Alex you knew that he wasn’t anything like that; he was so much better than what people thought of him. Even when he had met Anouk for the first time when their parents had introduced them, he acted how he would with anyone, he didn’t really care at that moment what Anouk would think of him, whether she thought he was an uptight asshole or a perfect brother; he didn’t care, but now her opinion was the only thing that mattered to him and it was surprising how much he could change in just a matter of few moments. But relationships did change you, all the time, and people always said that it was for the best. Rolling his eyes at her, he just shook his head, not really wanting to say anything.

Alexei was never good when it came to being the center of attention. When he was in high school and he did really well in art, his teacher used to hold up his artwork to show every body and he hated that, he felt as if all students would find him to be a goody two shoes, and he didn’t want that; he just wanted to fit in. Wasn’t that what everyone wanted? To be included and to feel a part of something and alive, not to be shunned by society into the corner, but Alex was the one who shoved himself to it and he had no idea why…it felt pretty good to talk to someone, but not be the center of attention. He just smiled, nodding reassuringly as Anouk’s father told Anouk to leave Alex alone, and he just smiled, not really knowing what to say and left father and daughter to talk for a bit. But he was pulled back in when Anouk smacked his arm and his mouth turned into an ‘O’ shape, while his eyes widened at it. He let out a little snicker though because it was true what he had said, she had been pushing him to do things…at least he didn’t tell her father what things, then that (maybe) would have been problematic. “You just love me too much, that’s why you give in to me.” Laughing, he pushed out his lips at her in a kissy way.

He was completely ready to eat up Anouk as her father got settled to watch the television, he was ready to nudge her upstairs and just kiss her completely. His mind was in a blissful oblivion and he didn’t think that he could come off from it, because everything was so good; everything felt so right in Sydney, why couldn’t it be like that all the time? The blissful feeling in his mind told him that nothing could go wrong for the week that was why Lenny’s next question surprised him. He was in the middle of nipping Anouk’s collarbone and stopped midway just like Lenny had with the television remote in his hand. Pulling away from Anouk, he sat up straight, running a nervous hand through his hair as he looked at Anouk, she seemed to have the same expression as he had on his face and it wasn’t a good one. Both had no idea how they were going to convey this sort of information to their parents. Coughing, he put a hand on Anouk’s leg for reassurance. “Of course we’d like to tell our parents, we’re just waiting for the right time. In a relationship like ours, there seems to not be a right time, but we are working on it Lenny. We’re just enjoying every moment that we can right now.”

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word count// 741!
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[anouk lirienne fournier]

It was true; Anouk just loved Alexei too much to not spoil him or to say ‘no’ to him. Whenever they fought she was the one always saying sorry first or forgiving him too quickly. But she couldn’t help it, and she wasn’t hurting by doing that was it wrong to spoil the man of your life and dreams? She didn’t think so and since she lived her life the way she wanted if someone ever told her she was wrong it was going to deaf ears. She could care less about people’s opinions on her life style, she didn’t have to prove herself to anyone and no one was going to live her life for her either so why trying to fit in? If people liked her, good and if they didn’t… well they knew where the door was. Anouk called for attention, she loved the spotlight, the bright light and the compliments, and she especially had loved the attention showed by the boys when she went out. Now all the attention she wanted was Alexei’s. Though all she did before, the way she had dressed and made sure he saw her before going out, had been to call his attention too, but she never received his approbation, not like she could blame him for that. “That’s going to change, you know. It’s not good I spoil you too much.” She said partly joking; she really did want him to spoil her from time to time too.

Anouk shivered as Alex nipped at her neck, she wanted to turn and kiss him senseless but it wouldn’t really be the best thing to do in front of her father. She wanted to go upstairs and lock the door so no one would disturb them and try one of those cute lingerie sets she had bought with Scarlett. She had a feeling tonight at least was going to be heavy stuff even if it wasn’t sex, to be honest as long as she was touching him, as long as she could feel his kisses and his skin pressed against her she was more than satisfied. She didn’t need to go all the way, she just needed to feel him, to know he was there and he was able to throw her world upside down and on fire with such simple touches that it was unbelievable. Anouk never questioned the power Alex had over her, she was head over heels in love with him from the start and it only grew, and now that it was finally his well, it only grew stronger and more passionate as if half of her love had been put on standby until he was hers. Her father though had a way to ruin the mood, even if he didn’t know he was doing it. Bringing the topic of her mother hadn’t been a good idea but it was only natural he would ask. She felt Alex straighten besides her and stopping what he was doing and she hated it, but that fact went to the back of her mind when he spoke.

Her father looked thoughtful as if he was deciding between saying something or remain silent, finally he smiled and relaxed against the couch, pressing the mute again to listen to the TV before speaking. “Whenever you are ready I’ll be there to lend you a hand with dealing with Carine.” He said and then he turned his attention to the TV and the match. Anouk was speechless but she hadn’t expected less from her father. It meant a lot to her that he approved of Alex so much that he was going to risk the thin relationship he had with her mom for them. She looked up at Alex with a bright smile and got up of the couch taking him with her. “We are going to be upstairs resting for a bit until dinner is ready dad, call if you need something.” She said and took Alex’s hand to guide him upstairs. Since her father had pretty much killed the mood downstairs she hoped to bring it up again in the intimacy of their room. Locking the door behind her she smiled sexily at him and walked toward the bed, lying in her back and closing her eyes. It was so comfortable there and she was so tired, she hoped at least she wasn’t going to fall asleep.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 735
NOTES, yay!

[alexei leon fournier]

He was the spoilt one in the relationship that he could admit without a second thought, only because Anouk chose to spoil him by giving into everything he wanted. He was sure that if he wanted her to take a bath in ice cold ice cubes, he’d somehow managed to persuade her to even do that; there was no way she would deny anything he said, but that didn’t meant that Alex would take advantage of it all. He only took advantage of her when he really wanted her to do something for him. He knew that he had to spoil her quite a bit too because she deserved the spoiling after everything that had happened in her life, she really did and he wanted her to be spoiled. Sure the rose was the first step but after that he hadn’t done anything for her at all, he should be doing things for her and not vice versa, because she was the one who had to be pampered. She was tired he knew that, mainly because of her withdrawal from everything and it was all because of him, she was suffering the most in this relationship but he wanted to take that suffering from her and put it all on himself; he wasn’t going to let her take all the sacrifices. That was why he had decided that she could drink this holiday, just drink, not going onto drugs but just drinks. He hadn’t told her yet though, he would just wine and dine her with his charm. Nodding his head, he smiled at Anouk, putting an arm around her shoulder and holding her close to him.”I agree, it should be your turn to be spoiled and pampered and I’m going to make sure that I give it to you this week.”

Maybe she should be spoiled with sex too? He didn’t want to give into her but being a boy meant that he did have a lot of urges and he was sure that Anouk could sense them all, he just didn’t want to seem to be the eager one in the relationship, he wanted to take things slow but fast paced too; if there ever was such a thing of course. All thoughts of course about lying Anouk down on the bed and doing things to her had been boomeranged out of his head as soon as his step mother’s name was involved, it was obvious that Lenny didn’t mind about the strong bond between Anouk and Alex but he was worried about what his step mother would think. She was sort of strict, not all too much on Alex because she wasn’t his child, but she was stern when it came to important matters. He couldn’t help but to feel slightly terrified, who wouldn’t? Alex didn’t care so much about his father; he never really did have that much of a strong relationship with him as Alex grew older. But his father did count as something, both the parents could be factors that could tear their relationships apart and that wasn’t great at all.

Taking in a deep breath, he sat still, an eyebrow raised as Anouk’s father smiled and visibly relaxed against the sofa, he exhaled in relief and leaned back against the sofa himself, looking at Anouk with a smile. “Thank you very much Lenny, we really appreciate it.” Nodding his head, his mood had suddenly lifted up to become playful and happy once more. Lenny really was easy going as Anouk had said which was surprising for Alex because he had feared the worst. He was forced off the sofa by Anouk and nodded goodbye to her father before following her up the stairs to their bedroom. As they passed Scarlett’s bedroom, he heard some songs playing from her IPod, her door was open and she raised an eyebrow, winking at Anouk as she unpacked her luggage; which had confused Alex for some reason. He chuckled as he watched her smiling at him and locking the door. Leaning against the door with an amused look on his face, he smirked as she lay down on the bed and closed her eyes. Hefting himself off of the door, he walked towards the bed, taking off his shoes and crawling onto the bed, leaning over her. Kissing her closed eyelids, he gently trailed kisses along her jaw, neck and face. “Well that was pretty easy.”

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word count// 739!
thoughts//woop!

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk smiled happily as Alexei said he was going to spoil her this week. She had expected as much to be honest because well, here they didn’t have to hide, they could do whatever they wanted; they could go on dates and have fun without having to worry at all and it was a great feeling. She didn’t care giving in to Alexei at all; she wanted him to be happy and comfortable in the relationship, as much as he could be being such a worried guy all the time. She knew though the spoiling part won’t include sex, and to be honest she didn’t care much as long as she was with him. Sure she had her needs and she was getting restless, and as she had told Scarlett before she needed to distract her mind of the withdrawal and the needs of her body with something. But Alex wasn’t going to give in anytime soon, and though she had plans of changing that… well her mind was pretty much used to the idea that sex will have to wait. “Thanks love.” She said smiling up to him and lacing their fingers when she passed his arm around her shoulder. What Alex didn’t know was that he was already spoiling Anouk by just being with her. Everything he gave to her, it didn’t matter what it was or how little, was very important for her. Just by holding her close or by looking at her he was spoiling her. She had that need of him for such a long time that now everything was like a gift.

She was on a dream and she never wanted to wake up from it, she could care less about her mother or step-dad going against the relationship. Anouk had fought way too much to get this all, she had fought for Alex with all her might and no one was going to take him away from her, there was no way she would allow such a thing. Still she was terrified of what would happen when they talked to their parents about this, mostly because she knew Alex somehow was going to break under the pressure one way of another and morals will kick in him. She hoped she could cling to him with enough strength to keep him to her side. Without realizing it and as Alex and her father talked about her mother she made a sad face and squeezed his hand. Pain once again in her chest as the thought of losing him crossed her mind. Anouk wouldn’t be able to make it without him, that much was a given, but she could try even if she was dead inside. She wasn’t going to hurt him that way again, if he decided to leave her she was going to accept it and fight to get him back. “You are very welcome, I don’t think she will be much a problem honestly, she is a hopeless romantic.” Anouk heard her father said. She was glad to leave for her room not wanting to raise the topic again and as they walked by Scarlett’s room she winked her friend back.

The bed was so comfortable and she was suddenly tired from all the memories that had run through her head and the slight pain she had felt. It all vanished though when Alex kissed her eyelids and she smiled at him surrounding his neck with her arms and getting slightly up to kiss him. “I told you dad was an easy win, he adores you.” She whispered against his lips, brushing their noses together. Anouk was glad to see he was back in his happy playful mode and he trailed kisses along her jaw and neck, her weakest point. She didn’t want to make things difficult for him to restrain but he was making it difficult for her. She bit her lip her eyes closed and playing with his hair. She knew it was a weakness of his and for once she didn’t care about everything else but him and this moment. What if she pushed the strings a bit now? Will he follow or will he stop? Was he going to allow things to get as heated as before to just stop? She didn’t know if she could handle that again today. She moaned a bit, trying not to so he wouldn’t get turned on, but it was too late, she was in the mood. “You are making this difficult for me, I have no self-control whatsoever.” She warned him, kissing him again; well attacking his lips would be more accurate as she crashed her lips against his with a passion she hadn’t felt before. He could do wonders in her and if he wasn't going to take the lead then she will.

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 803
NOTES, yay!

[alexei leon fournier]

Rolling his eyes at her as she thanked him, there really wasn’t any need for ‘thanks’ was there? It was supposed to be his duty to be this nice to her; after all they were together now. It was something compulsory, he should have pampered her every day with the littlest things, even if it was just some sort of massage or some sort of little present like another flower or a bracelet. She deserved the pampering that he could unleash, after all, he was pretty much of a romantic but lately it seemed that he wasn’t being romantic just lustful. But was that so wrong? Because really, Anouk didn’t seem to find anything that he did horrible at all, even if he teased her into oblivion, even if he didn’t believe in himself, she was always doing her very best to make him happy. Looking down at their entwined fingers he smiled, nodding his head happily; not bothering to tell her that there was no need for thanks, he meant everything and it was all for her. He was such a worry wart, he should stop this and just go back to his old, normal self; he was completely sure that if he did then Anouk would be having so much of a better time, the Alex that he was now; the quiet, patient, calm Alex, what if she found this boring?

Fighting for something you loved was always difficult whenever it was going to be torn apart by someone, whenever it was going to be torn apart it was something that made everyone scared, terrified. His life was perfect now, his life was great, and nothing could dissolve the happiness that he was feeling at that moment, the tense less muscles the happy wrinkles from his face; nothing could be gone from that moment and he was going to make sure that it would stay that way. At least for that week, he didn’t want Anouk to worry about anything about back home at that moment, because right now he could do whatever he wanted with her, he could kiss her,. Hold her hand, put a hand on her shoulder, her thigh, blow a strand of hair out of her way, he could do anything that he wanted. He raised an eyebrow when he saw a sad face flash across Anouk’s face, wondering why she would be sad, she was the one who didn’t mind about their parents knowing, in fact it should have been him with a sad face on; not her.

He smiled, hands going underneath Anouk’s body and holding her up to him as her arms wrapped around his neck. This was great, so better, it was everything he wanted. Laughing, he nodded his head and continued to kiss her. “I’m glad he does; now I don’t have to be worried for the rest of the week and focus on us.” He laughed, closing his eyes as her hands finally closed around his strands of her and he took a heavy breath in. Things were going to go very fast quite quick but he was making sure that he could control himself easily. His eyes stayed closed throughout the entire thing, the nose rubbing the kisses; he was hoping he was making her flush with desire, he wanted her to know that he was experienced enough to pleasure her, maybe not as her previous partners, but he had some experience. He chuckled at her words, rubbing his nose against her own, he moved his hand out from underneath her and put it beside her head, pushing his lips out and pecking her own lips quickly once. “Then learn some darling.” Eyes widening at her sudden attack, his arms went around her body once more and he pulled her closer, kissing her harder and with a different passion than before. “We should stop, we really should, but I don’t want to ...at all.” He groaned a little, getting entirely too turned on by her own moan and began attacking her neck with his lips and teeth, the thought of making a hickey suddenly in his head.

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word count// 690!
thoughts//just a minder, i won't be on tomorrow, off to my nan's house ^^

[anouk lirienne fournier]

Anouk found everything Alexei did cute and sweet, she loved everything he did. She tired her best to make him happy and to brush off the doubts he had about not being good enough or not giving her enough. He filled her with happiness, he made her feel like no one else in this world, all she had seen when everything went black was him… wasn’t that proof enough that he meant her whole world? That he was everything and more? Of course he was always worried and scared about someone bumping into them and had half her mind into hiding when they were together and it was a bit irritating, but just being in the same room as him knowing he loved her… well that was more than she had asked in the first place, because Anouk hadn’t expected him loving her. She had told him all that before, but she wanted to remind him that his love was like a gift for her, something precious. She didn’t need presents; she didn’t need all those meaningless things other girls wanted from their boyfriends. She wanted those little gestures of him, the caresses, the kisses… and to be honest, hiding made it all feel so much better and exciting. But it was liberating to be able to touch in front of people knowing they won’t be judged because of it.

Anouk had never cared much about what people said or thought, and she certainly didn’t care about what her mother would say, but she feared the effect it was going to have in Alexei and how much it will make him suffer. Maybe it had been better if she never confessed, maybe she should have left him alone and happy in his world without dragging him into this. She did another pained face but it all faded away with Alex’s touches. As he wrapped his arms around her she smiled against his lips, shivering from the touch and his taste. If she ever had a doubt about loving him, she was certain she wouldn’t, all he had to do was touch her. The way he made her feel… it was nothing she had experimented before, and it was so much better than all the things she had done with other guys. It was something as simple as holding her, as simple as a kiss, and it made her feel as if she could touch the sky. “Concentrating on us sounds like the right thing to do.” Anouk so wanted all his attention on her, and right now that was all he was doing, and there was no one else around to interrupt them, to ruin the moment. Alexei was doing one hell of a job turning her on, no one would have said he wasn’t experienced, it didn’t matter how many guys she had slept with there was no one who could be a match to him.

She leaned her face into his hand, laughing. There was no way she was going to learn self control, not when it came to sex, though she was forcefully learning some thanks to him. “That’s not possible when I have you all over me.” She said and to prove her point she decided she could care less about control and his damned ‘taking things slow’. Anouk wanted him, there was no way she could hide it anymore. She didn’t want to have to hide it or control it, why should she restrain herself in showing him how much she was capable of loving him? Luckily for her Alexei didn’t push her away but got into it and kissed her back with the same passion, she played with his hair making a mess of it, and enjoyed the sudden bliss of happiness that ran through her body. She was lost in the feeling, she was all on fire and she wasn’t going to stop anytime soon. She tried to focus on what he said and instead of killing her mood it just fueled it more. At least this time he didn’t want to stop. “I don’t see why you should.” She gasped, and moaned more when she heard him groan and took his lips to her throat. Anouk moved her hands from his hair to his t-shirt and slipped them inside it, running her hands through his back and pressing her body harder against him. She titled her head to the side so he will have better access on her neck. He had a way of driving her crazy. She wanted to go all the way, but if she lost control and he did too, was he going to regret it later?

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OUTFIT, here
WORD COUNT, 778
NOTES, awww I will miss you <3 but I hope you have great fun!